I know that i am still trying to deal with the death of my life partner, my heart, my joy, my wife.
Maybe, i will never get over it. In some ways i do not wish to as it would somehow diminish my memory of our life together. At the same time i do not wish to deify her or our relationship.
The biggest issue i seem to struggle with is, despite everything I did and tried to do, i still feel I did not do enough to make her life as good as i was capable of. I still feel I could have done better and I was and am still not worthy of her and her love.
God, I miss her!
