Hopeless

I sincerely do not wish that you get into a hopeless situation like I did.

See, I married a wonderful woman who really did not have much before I met her. That did not keep her from being extremely generous. So much so that when I married her she was in a court-appoved payment progam in lieu of bankruptcy for bills her mother rang up in her name.

I did not give the heavens and the earth, although I would have liked to. However, when her job went away after 10 years of marriage she never had to work again. I bought her everything she ever wanted. A big motorhome we could not use because of her illness that I kept so that hope was not lost. I had a house built to her needs and specifications.

I tried to convince her she did not have to worry about money at all because we were beyond just secure.

Money was not an object. I could buy her anything and would have because I flat out loved her. I could have paid for the finest care, but we were already getting it.

I sat beside her bed and watched the most beautiful person in my life fade away. That is the true definition of hopeless.